Sunday, January 31, 2010

Just Pray for Me.....

I truly look forward to the day when I PRAY for other people the way  others have prayed for me.  I have begged for prayers from my family and friends lately.  I have been a burden to my family for months now.  I have caused pain and suffering and I really hope that soon I will be the JOY!  I really, really hope that I can give back to all who have loved me with unconditional love for so long now.   I want to be the blessing.  I want to be the one who can help others.  I am so angry right now, and that let's me know I am not ready to be "anything" to anybody at this point.  I am just looking forward to my recovery and that this situation IS GOING TO MAKE ME STRONGER!  It hasn't KILLED me yet...........

I Just MIGHT Be Finding My New GROOVE...

Well, I think I Just MIGHT Be Finding My New GROOVE........

Okay, Maybe NOT, but I am hopeful that I will real soon! I really want to blog and catch up on ME, and stuff that ME Loves.  It's just sooo hard right now.  I don't feel like a real person yet.  I am like lost inside a crazy world that could not possibly be my own! 

I am trying to take ONE Day at a Time.........I was thinking yesterday that all of my life I have heard people say, "Life is so Hard" or "Marriage is a lot of work".  I honestly have never had to feel like LIFE was Hard, or that Marriage was Work!  I am beginning to understand now. 
Randy & I were attending Oakwood Baptist Church on a regular basis a few years back during a sermon series about marriage.  I remember enjoying the sermons but neither of us felt like we needed them.  Our marriage was perfect!  I learned a lot and shared what I learned with co-workers and friends.  I didn't think very much of it applied to US, because we were soooo happy.  WOW!  How time changes things and changes things VERY quickly!  One of the main points of the series I can remember is that men need to know they are respected and women need know they are loved.  What a simple concept that is so very important.

My sister April mentioned to me that maybe I am going through this trial and rough period in my life so that God may use me to minister to other woman going through the same thing.  I cannot imagine anything that I would have to say would minister to anyone right now, but I do know that HE IS STILL Working ON ME!  Maybe one day this will all look like a stepping stone, a starting point to something beautiful and wonderful.  Who Knows.....I am just going to have to learn to trust in HIM, my heavenly Father and stop trying to "run" my own life.  I belong to HIM.  It is time for me to wake up and give up my desires,  hand them over to my Creator, The One who allows me to breathe and wake up each morning no matter how underserving I am!

I am going to close this post now but I do wish to be back real soon.  I would like to recommend a tool for people going through a divorce.  I have been encouraged by the daily emails (on Day #8) and really think this is a very cool way to get a daily dose of good while trying to recover from such an awesome hurt.  If you know someone going through a divorce or separation, DivorceCare is a very useful tool.  Check it out:   http://www.divorcecare.org/

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Laughing.....

I am so laughing at myself right now reading my first NEW BLOG post as a SINGLE GIRL!  It was my birthday & I guess I was freaking out......Little did I know what the month of December had in store for ME~

32 Day DIVORCE....(Fastest Divorce in Georgia, I am sure of it!)  : (

I spent New Year's Eve ALONE for the FIRST time in my ENTIRE Life.....New Year's DAY Night ALONE!......

I am learning to deal.....  I really do hope to make time soon to update this Blog with GOOD Stuff & PROGRESS!  Just not ready yet.....

Bye for now.........

STAY TUNED!  I promise, I WILL GET BETTER! 

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Just JENNY! Oh My, Oh Dear.....


Not too sure How to begin My New SINGLE Girl Blog.............UMMM....... I had a 39th Birthday TODAY! Yaaaaahhh! For ME, I....Think........ I am lonely tonite..........BUT! It's MY CHOICE! Family & Friends have offered for me to stay with them! I CHOOSE to BE Alone.....I am just in shock.....I HAVE NEVER, Ever Spent a Birthday Alone~

UMMM, Yes, I had Family Day.......BUT.........NIGHT!???!@??!?? What UP? Been Married TOO Long........I am used to getting that special birthday gift men like to give whether you want IT or NOT???~???~? I am so being sarcastic and gross single girl right now....I need to quit.......Okay, Love to my Fans! Stay tuned for more from JENNY & her not so great JOTTINGS! Just love me..........I need you guys! I will be in touch! ; )
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